I think my brain is missing

Losing my mind over him!! Everytime I hear our song, my mind wanders back to the day we danced to it. We literally danced to it like 4 times in a row. And I want to go back to that moment and stay there. I see that favorite picture of him and I want him to look at me like that again. I miss seeing his face. I miss holding his hand and I miss the promises. I miss talking about getting married. I just miss those dreams we shared. But we are moving in seperate directions so fast, I can barely reach out to grab you. I still dream about you every night. I still think about that big wedding. I still want all that. But you don't. At least not any more. And the sad part? I don't know what you want! You are so confusing! I want to lay in your arms forever, just like you promised. And sadly I just realized, I went from talking about him, to talking like I am talking to him! But I love him. And if I knew he wouldn't get upset I would tell him.